God’s Grace

One of my favorite activities is filling in my agenda/calendar. One year, I was really into bullet journals and customized each month with a theme and drew out my monthly and weekly calendars, adding illustrations, using washi-tape, creating different kinds of lists, experimenting with calligraphy and different letterforms, etc. I had so much time (haha), and it was so much fun! But 2020 happened and the rest of the world and I suddenly had absolutely no plans. What an eventful year, though! Now it’s already the middle of 2021 and the world is slowly coming back to normal; which means, I’m back at it with the planning. No longer bullet-journaling, but planning nonetheless. I started planning last August, hoping this pandemic would end this spring/summer, and thankfully my early planning allowed me to find great prices for travel. As soon as my daughter finished her school year, literally on the last day of school, we flew to Hawaii and dove into our vacation. From there it has been like driving from zero to 60 mph in 2 seconds. Now that the initial acceleration is over, our summer is on cruise control and we are enjoying our leisurely time at home.

Sometimes in conversation, my family and I discuss our future plans, but under my nods and okays, in my mind, my planning has always been limited to one year. Even within a year, I keep in mind that God is in control and He controls each day. With so many distressing (local and national) news this past year (and every day!), I say a little prayer each time we step outside. Forget cancer; there are so many other life-threatening things happening everywhere. My husband tells me to stop reading the news/headlines, and I have been trying. Because of cancer though, I have the privilege of waking each morning knowing that each day is a gift. And it’s been a 5+ year gift so far. Thank you, Lord.

5 years. 60 months. 37.5 years. Thank you, Lord.

My daughter celebrated her 7th birthday a couple days ago. Thank you, Lord. We went to Disneyland (they had been closed for over a year). We were standing in a long line to ride the newly updated Snow White’s Enchanted Wish and I asked my husband to take a photo of me and my daughter while standing in line within the Royal Hall area. He unknowingly captured the moment with a lens flare. Unlike other lens flares, this one appeared as a rainbow arching right above and around us. On a cloudless, hot and sunny day, a rainbow appeared within our photo. I was reminded again of His presence around me. I cannot control my tears when I think about how undeserving I am of His love and mercy. I cannot control my tears when I think about how thankful I am for these past 5 years and every day I wake. Thank you, Lord.

I will extol you, my God and King,
and bless your name forever and ever.
Every day I will bless you
and praise your name forever and ever.
Great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised,
and his greatness is unsearchable.

Psalm 145:1-3 (ESV)

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